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I Am Now a Motherless Daughter This year I joined a sisterhood that no girl wants to be a part of. I am now a motherless daughter. Mom got sick the day after my parents arrived in Florida and she has spent the last 5 months in a nursing home before passing away the day before my birthday. I knew she would never get better but I had hoped she had more time. I see other women with their mothers having lunch or shopping and a wave of envy washes over me. My girlfriend told me she had plans to visit her mother for the day and a bitter jealousy stabbed at me. I should be happy for my friend that she still has her Mom to enjoy but it s hard for me right now to share ncaa shop that joy. I am only 42 years old. I anticipate that I will have many years ahead of me without my mother. I awoke last Saturday and my first thought was" I haven t talked to Mom in awhile. I should give her a call today" and then the fog of sleepiness lifted and I remembered she was gone. A pang of emptiness swept over me as I realized I would never be able to have our Saturday morning chats over coffee. Sympathy cards came to the house for days after Mom passed and I wondered if I should respond to all the kind people who took the time to write. This was just one kind of question I would seek advice on from my mother and I wonder who I can ask from now on. I struggle to hold on to the memory of the sound of her voice and the way she smelled. I can hear the way she would call me "dear" but I fear the sound of her voice fading. I have her answering machine and I play the greeting every now and then just to hear her voice again. I spray her perfume bottle of Chanel Number 5 on me to keep her close but I am afraid to do this too often because soon it will run out. This was the first year I didn t spend Christmas at "home" with my parents in my whole life. My husband and I had no where to go for Christmas Eve so we spent it home alone. It was like any other night. Some day we ll have to find a new tradition but this year I spent it feeling very sorry for myself. I wanted our old Christmas s back even though they weren t always perfect either. My mom and I didn t always see eye to eye, in fact we were very different people with many different values, but she was my foundation and the only older female I had to offer me wisdom and to share life experiences. I feel like a canoe on a river now without an oar, drifting aimlessly and hoping I will wind up in the right place. I ask my friends who have lost loved ones if they "feel" their loved one s presence with them. The question never even crossed my mind before I lost my Mom but now it s a question I ask everyone I know who has lost someone close. The answers vary, of course, and I know we all experience things in our own way and time but I desperately need to know that it is possible to feel people that we have lost. I thought I didn t feel my mother with me and it troubled me. I would sit alone, close my eyes and try and feel her around me. I would speak out loud to her and wait for an answer to come to me. I felt like I was speaking to thin air. But then someone asked me something about my Mom and I replied without thinking" ncaa football gear apparel It doesn t feel like she s even gone. I still feel like she is here." Mothers Are Still Important and Mothers Day is EssentialMothers are still very important in many children and adults lives. There roles go beyond just traditional mothering because they are also leaders in our societies. Therefore, we honor Mothers Day and all Mothers. Why Dame 3 Joe Montana White Stitched NCAA Jersey didn t I know this?Top Ten Gift Ideas for New MothersTop ten gift ideas for new mothers. |